First off, if you're reading this because I asked you too, thank you, I'm sorry I didn't tell everyone directly but this is easier than telling people directly
Originally this was ment to be apart of another blog post about my vacation, but it grew enough and it's important enough that I think it needs to be separate
The life I lead.
12:55am 03/24/2026 Is when I admitted it to myself.
In a random AirBnB somewhere in Wales, in the dead of night, alone in my room, I finally fully admitted it.
I am a trans non-confirming tomboy girl, and I go by she/they.
I've been questioning a while, and been trying to figure this out for ages but I was scared. Scared of getting it wrong and putting myself in a box, scared of living as outwardly trans in today's world, scared of the change.
and I still am scared, part of the reason I'm writing this is that I'm scared of telling people, it's easier to write this out for me then it is to talk in person.
a lot of it was putting myself in that box, because I don't identify with the full stereotypical girl, I'm more of a tomboy, I don't really want breasts and I'm still not fully sure if dropping the enby title is correct for me. but... the mini giddyness being called by she, wanting a feminine voice, not identifying with being a "guy", feeling out of place in the mens bathroom, wanting the changes of estrogen and more keep confirming to me that this might be right.
but something I've been trying to teach myself is that life is too short to not be happy In fear of being scared. I became an adult very recently at the time of writing, and the time I have on this earth isn't getting any longer.
so I'm still thinking about things, but I think this is right. Yes it might be scary at times, but... it will be worth it
Thank you for reading. If this seems rushed then that's because it kinda... was lol. I write this while still on vacation, some bits on my laptop in my room, others on my phone on a sunny beach.
And finally...
Thank you to all my friends, if it wasn't for all of you I don't know if I would have been confident enough to do this, any of this. I owe y'all the world.
That's all from me though, thank you for reading, and I'll see you soon... <3
